FUN肆娱乐

Sometime around last month I dreamed that Kenny visited my blog and left me a message.  It was a paragraph of message in English.  WowHooo......I was excited and started reading the message.  But then the words became blurry and I could not see it......    

For more than 13 years (almost 14 years), I have dreamed of Kenny Ho many times....it's uncountable.  Some of them were very weird but whenever it happens, it is always sweet.    All these dreams are buried in my mind...of course I wish they can come true; however........

Until that day I found his blog, part of my dreams really came true....incredible  ....and it gives me hope that more parts of my dreams may come true.  After these many years, the unmeasurable distance finally seems like it shorten a little bit.  

I am happy that I opened this blog; I always expect him to visit me.  Unfortunately, I setup my blog during one of his busiest periods.  Also, recently there are so many issues about the Olympics, and Kenny wrote about these in his diaries......I now start to have many different unnecessary thoughts, and sometimes even worry about things like...."I am in USA...Is he going to dislike me?  Or ignore me?  Then he will never visit my blog?  Or will he mind that I am a Chinese person using English here?  Will he think that I am showing off here?  Or maybe most of his fans feel the same way too, and I can never be part of the big family of Kenny Ho fans?  I am sorry...I can't type Chinese, and I never learned how to...Yes, I am Chinese.  I can speak, read, write, and understand Chinese; however, I don't know the 'Mandarin Sound Translation' and don't know how to type Chinese.  My first language is Cantonese, both Mandarin and English are my second languages.  I learn to speak Mandarin from my Chinese friends here, not by any 'Sound Translation'.  (If I really need to type Chinese sometimes, I will find the words on line to copy & paste.)  Also, I don't think my English is good, and somehow it is hard for me to express myself thoroughly using English.  I would like to improve my writing in English by updating my blog.  But will Kenny and his fans see it and understand it?  Are they going to welcome me?  Or become friends with me?  Or just pay no attention?  Or........."  These thoughts may sound stupid.  I know...it may be stupid, strange, extreme...Kenny is such a nice and friendly person...how would he?!!  But I can hardly control myself not to think that much because I care about him...care about the way he looks at me.  For real, I want to "be closer" to him, and I want to be part of Kenny Ho fans group and become friends with all the fans!  

I have contradicting thoughts when I look at the following:

Got these when I browsed other fans' blogs...our distance seems shorten but at the same time seems so far away......

Anyway, I will just try my best to save money for a HK trip to join the club activities and meet Kenny.  Nevertheless, I believe that a lot of things are meant to be.  I know I should not think too much, and there are thousands of things that I have no control of.  Just let it flow...it will come when the time is right.  Even if he won't visit my blog or know of my presence, I won't blame him and should not let myself feel disappointed because I am one of his many fans.  I don't mind being one of the unknown fans wishing him happiness, all the best.  Most importantly of all, I will always support him no matter what!