情感牧场

最近的同学聚会的激动才刚刚平静下来， 由于谈笑过多和疯狂歌唱而嘶哑了的嗓子还未完全恢复。刚刚回到北美，就收到一封意外的电子邮件。意外的是内容。有了这个年龄和经历，就难有让自己怦然心动的事了，但是这封来信着实象一石击水在平静的生活中泛起了一点点涟漪。

一个聪慧，英俊,曾经的翩翩少年在信中这样写道：（原文是英文）“How are you? It's really nice for me to see you again. I am very happy to know everything is good with you. And you are still beautiful.
 
Here, I want to tell you a secret which has been buried deep in my heart. You know, during our college life, you were my dreamgirl all the time. Maybe you once sensed a little, only a little. However, I never said it out because of so many reasons. At least, I was not a brave man.
 
I have no other implications to tell you this. Now we are both over fifties. Let's take it as a reminisce, which may bring us back to the old days.”

我很意外同时也很兴奋地知道他对我往日的情谊。我知道在世界上又多了一个欣赏过我的人。我此刻应该如何作想呢。我感到温馨，感到骄傲。我开始冥想，又有些惋惜和歉意。如果我早20年收到这封信，我的人生会有何不同？会更幸福还是更孤独？我告诉他：“虽然我依然是无神论者，现在也开始认为世上很多的事情不是自己能够安排得了的。冥冥之中，人们都是按照早已定好的轨道行驶着。我们目前的状况也许是最佳安排了。我珍视他的这份情意， 感激他曾经对我的眷恋。也非常感谢他最终能让我知道他的心意。我要说的就是：亲爱老同学，祝你永远幸福，一路走好。

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